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is my beta. It's also my progesterone.

Holy cow that means I'm pregnant.

It feels very different from the first time this happened. I mean, we're happy, obviously, but we're cautious. It's the best possible news based on where we are, but it's so scary. I keep reminding myself that a successful outcome starts like this, too. We told our immediate families, but also told them we don't plan on talking about it much until we get to the second trimester.

I don't even know when that is -- I'm not looking up dates like that. I'll wait for my clinic to give me my meds schedule -- it'll tell me when I stop progesterone and when I stop Lovenox, and all the dates that matter. I think when we have a successful ultrasound with my regular OB in 4-5 weeks, maybe then we can breathe...

One day at a time. So far so good.

You guys have been a great source of support for me -- thanks for being there and cheering me on.

I go back on Friday for beta #2, and I expect sometime next week I'll have another round of Intralipid.