Thursday, December 16, 2010

Not this time, either

As we suspected would be the case, there was no heartbeat at our ultrasound today.

My ob (who was my preIVF fertility doc) is leaving on vacation tomorrow, but managed to get us in for a 7pm D&E tonight. I'm going with anesthesia for this one since the one in the spring was so traumatic.

I think having the bad news spread over two days made it a little easier to handle. It's all relative, of course.

We'll do the genetic testing again. I'm not sure if there's a way to check my immune system levels, since the Intralipid on Tuesday would have calmed down anything active. But I'd hate to rely on it being all chromosomal issues if we also have some immune stuff happening.

Not the way we wanted to go into our holidays, that's for sure.

Your comments on my last post were wonderful and helped us get through the past two days. Thank you.

25 comments:

  1. My heart is just breaking for you. I'm so incredibly sorry.

    You'll be in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

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  2. Oh my gosh I can't believe this is happening to you again. I'm so sorry.

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  3. I am so sorry. It is just unfair. I will keep you in my thoughts. Hugs...

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  4. Bravegirl...your news today and the passing of your bean is massively unfair. I am so heartbroken for you two...big hugs.

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  5. Oh I'm so very sorry. This is so incredibly unfair, and my heart breaks for you.

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  6. When I read this blog post, my heart seriously sank. You seem to be so strong right now, but I know you're breaking inside. I'm so sorry this is happening to you guys again. My heart and prayers go out to you. I really hope testing is done and it's discovered that it is NOT your immune system killing off the babies. Praying for you! If you need anything specifically, let me know, okay?

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  7. I wish I could hug you right now, I am so terribly sorry. It just doesn't seem fair or just in anyway and all we can ever do is hope for a happy ending. In the interim, I am sending lots of love and energy your way to get you through this. xoxoxoxoxox

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  8. You are in my thoughts and prayers. So sorry you are going through this again. Stay strong.

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  9. i am so sorry. i'm always thinking of you.

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  10. I am so sorry for your loss. Hoping that all goes smoothly with your d&E. thinking of you and sending love your way.....

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  11. So incredibly sorry for your loss. Thinking of you, sending love and hoping for strength and support to get you through the difficult days ahead ((hugs))

    ~LFCA

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  12. I am so very sorry.

    I am so sorry the baby could not stay and come home with you. I wanted that baby where s/he belongs - with family. I am so very sorry for your loss.

    I suddenly am crushed with sadness for the title of your blog. Why do you have to be brave? Why does this happen?

    Take strength in your name. You called yourself this for a reason. It is a long and hard recovery, as you know, but you are never alone for a single minute.

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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  13. Brave IVF girl I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. It is just terrifying what you've been through. Sitting here thinking of you and sending you strength and hope.
    - LFCA

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  14. I know I tweeted you but I still wanted to stop by and show you some love at such a difficult time. My heart truly aches for you hon. You are and will be in my thoughts and prayers. So many hugs for you right now...

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  15. I am so sorry. I am sending you a big hug.

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  16. My heart is breaking reading this update--So unfair!! I'm soo very sorry that this had to happen. My heart and prayers are with you. Please stay strong-sending over lots of hugs....
    -K

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  17. Oh, Bravegirl. I am so sorry ... I'm sending my thoughts your way.

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  18. Oh, I'm so sorry to read about your losses. I am praying for you.
    Hugs

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  19. Wishing you a quick recovery. Please take good care of yourself.

    Here from LFCA

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  20. So deeply sorry that this is your reality right now. It's heartbreakingly unfar. Keeping you in my thoughts...

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  21. I am so sorry hun. Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you, hugs x

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