Thursday, December 16, 2010

Not this time, either

As we suspected would be the case, there was no heartbeat at our ultrasound today.

My ob (who was my preIVF fertility doc) is leaving on vacation tomorrow, but managed to get us in for a 7pm D&E tonight. I'm going with anesthesia for this one since the one in the spring was so traumatic.

I think having the bad news spread over two days made it a little easier to handle. It's all relative, of course.

We'll do the genetic testing again. I'm not sure if there's a way to check my immune system levels, since the Intralipid on Tuesday would have calmed down anything active. But I'd hate to rely on it being all chromosomal issues if we also have some immune stuff happening.

Not the way we wanted to go into our holidays, that's for sure.

Your comments on my last post were wonderful and helped us get through the past two days. Thank you.

25 comments:

  1. KellyDecember 16, 2010 at 2:53 PM

    My heart is just breaking for you. I'm so incredibly sorry.

    You'll be in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

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  2. ChristaDecember 16, 2010 at 2:55 PM

    Oh my gosh I can't believe this is happening to you again. I'm so sorry.

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  3. The Baby Chase ProjectDecember 16, 2010 at 2:56 PM

    I am so sorry. It is just unfair. I will keep you in my thoughts. Hugs...

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  4. AnonymousDecember 16, 2010 at 3:07 PM

    Bravegirl...your news today and the passing of your bean is massively unfair. I am so heartbroken for you two...big hugs.

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  5. AlexDecember 16, 2010 at 3:16 PM

    Oh I'm so very sorry. This is so incredibly unfair, and my heart breaks for you.

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  6. NinkDecember 16, 2010 at 3:21 PM

    When I read this blog post, my heart seriously sank. You seem to be so strong right now, but I know you're breaking inside. I'm so sorry this is happening to you guys again. My heart and prayers go out to you. I really hope testing is done and it's discovered that it is NOT your immune system killing off the babies. Praying for you! If you need anything specifically, let me know, okay?

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  7. KimDecember 16, 2010 at 4:19 PM

    I wish I could hug you right now, I am so terribly sorry. It just doesn't seem fair or just in anyway and all we can ever do is hope for a happy ending. In the interim, I am sending lots of love and energy your way to get you through this. xoxoxoxoxox

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  8. apluseffortDecember 16, 2010 at 5:44 PM

    I'm so very very sorry. <3

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  9. DMDecember 16, 2010 at 5:55 PM

    You are in my thoughts and prayers. So sorry you are going through this again. Stay strong.

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  10. ShortyDecember 16, 2010 at 6:09 PM

    i am so sorry. i'm always thinking of you.

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  11. cdgDecember 16, 2010 at 6:11 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Hoping that all goes smoothly with your d&E. thinking of you and sending love your way.....

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  12. CourtneyDecember 16, 2010 at 6:49 PM

    I am so incredibly sorry =*(

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  13. ~stinkb0mb~December 16, 2010 at 7:27 PM

    I'm so unbelievably sorry.

    ~x~

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  14. rebeccaDecember 16, 2010 at 7:46 PM

    So incredibly sorry for your loss. Thinking of you, sending love and hoping for strength and support to get you through the difficult days ahead ((hugs))

    ~LFCA

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  15. RoccieDecember 16, 2010 at 8:16 PM

    I am so very sorry.

    I am so sorry the baby could not stay and come home with you. I wanted that baby where s/he belongs - with family. I am so very sorry for your loss.

    I suddenly am crushed with sadness for the title of your blog. Why do you have to be brave? Why does this happen?

    Take strength in your name. You called yourself this for a reason. It is a long and hard recovery, as you know, but you are never alone for a single minute.

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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  16. AnonymousDecember 17, 2010 at 2:06 AM

    Brave IVF girl I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. It is just terrifying what you've been through. Sitting here thinking of you and sending you strength and hope.
    - LFCA

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  17. AnonymousDecember 17, 2010 at 8:06 AM

    I know I tweeted you but I still wanted to stop by and show you some love at such a difficult time. My heart truly aches for you hon. You are and will be in my thoughts and prayers. So many hugs for you right now...

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  18. AnonymousDecember 17, 2010 at 8:56 AM

    I am so sorry. I am sending you a big hug.

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  19. AnonymousDecember 17, 2010 at 10:25 AM

    My heart is breaking reading this update--So unfair!! I'm soo very sorry that this had to happen. My heart and prayers are with you. Please stay strong-sending over lots of hugs....
    -K

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  20. Justine LDecember 17, 2010 at 10:27 AM

    Oh, Bravegirl. I am so sorry ... I'm sending my thoughts your way.

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  21. Conceptionally ChallengedDecember 17, 2010 at 10:53 AM

    Oh no. I'm so very sorry.
    Thinking of you.

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  22. Amanda HoytDecember 17, 2010 at 11:12 AM

    Oh, I'm so sorry to read about your losses. I am praying for you.
    Hugs

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  23. JemDecember 17, 2010 at 11:24 AM

    Wishing you a quick recovery. Please take good care of yourself.

    Here from LFCA

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  24. TrinityDecember 18, 2010 at 2:43 PM

    So deeply sorry that this is your reality right now. It's heartbreakingly unfar. Keeping you in my thoughts...

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  25. MoonDecember 20, 2010 at 4:12 PM

    I am so sorry hun. Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you, hugs x

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