Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Can't we ever get a break?

We had our second ultrasound yesterday at 7w5d. It didn't go well.

There's a heartbeat, but it's slow (around 50 bpm). And it's grown, but only a little (measuring 6w3d +/- 4 days.

My ob thinks that my immune system is killing it and/or it's another chromosonally abnormal embryo. So we did an emergency Intralipid infusion (conveniently, his office started doing them about 6 months ago), and we'll go back for another ultrasound on Thursday to see if the heart rate has picked up. If it has, we're not out of the woods, but it would be a sign that the immune suppression worked and is helping. But the embryo could still be abnormal.

Our doctor gave a 50% likelihood that the Intralipid will help. Honestly, I suspect that's optimistic.

It would sure be nice to catch a break one of these days. I almost hope that it's another abnormal embryo so that we don't have to add concerns about my body killing off embryos to the list of problems we have to confront. Isn't that awful?

I'm on bed rest, and double doses of dexamethasone and Lovenox until the ultrasound tomorrow. Trying to just be, and not sink into this too much. There's a chance things will look better tomorrow.

We were worried about the timing of this pregnancy, since we knew we'd be finding out about any issues right before Christmas. I wish we weren't right about that.

12 comments:

  1. Sounds like you're having a really tough time, really sorry to hear that. Hang on in there, I have my fingers firmly crossed for you x

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  2. Oh I'm so sorry. Fingers crossed that everything works out okay. Stay strong.

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  3. I feel awful complaining about my days when I hear of news like this. I am so happy they caught this on this U/S - but so sorry it wasn't a normal U/S for you. I am hoping and praying with everything that I have that the the Intralipid treatment does the trick. What a rough day, I am so sorry. Thinking of you. xoxoxoxoxox

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  4. Oh no, I wish you had better news. I am hoping nad praying that these treatments work and that your little bean starts to progress in a normal way.
    I know this is an incredibly hard time for you and my heart goes to you. Hang in there.....

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  5. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I wish there were something more I could say. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  6. So sorry your having to deal with this. I really hope that your next u/s shows improvement.

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  7. Good luck for the next scan. You are having such a tough time, I really hope this is the end of your bad luck.

    Shona

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  8. What the frack? I am so sorry you are going through this. :( I have all of my hopes riding on the next u/s showing definite improvement. Stay strong. We are pulling for you. xoxo

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  9. Oh no oh no. I am so sorry to see you wrestling this.

    50% is good. You know how stats work in this damn world of IF. That is a high percentage of helping. Please hold onto hope a little bit longer.

    I am so sorry. Oh, I am crippled with words right now. This is very scary. You are on my mind.

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  10. Oh no - I'm so sorry that your ultrasound didn't go well. Really hoping the intralipids is exactly what you needed!!! Sending you good thoughts...

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  11. Ah geez! No doubt! PG Limbo sucks BIG TIME! I am soo sorry you are going through limbo hell again. So not fair. I really hope the shots will work...praying for you and your bean and thinking of you...

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  12. I'm so sorry...You are in my prayers and I've been thinking of you! Hope all goes well...Stay Strong.

    -K

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