Not my favorite day

This is my fourth Mother's Day since starting our journey. And I know there will be at least one more Mother's Day childless since the earliest our transfer could be is December or January, making next August-September the earliest we could actually have a baby.

And last week was one year since our first miscarriage.

So it's been a rough day. I went to brunch with my family/grandmother/aunt/cousins, and then spent the rest of the day with my family. Of that group only my immediate family knows about the miscarriage(s) and none of them realized it's been a year.

*sigh*

And my husband just left for five days on a business trip. (On the bright side it's much easier to have him leave this year than it was this time last year... I don't recommend being solo a week after a miscarriage/D&C...)

I'm happy to have a plan for this year and happy to be working with Dr. Sh.er and try a change in protocol. But it's been a long journey and right now it feels like there's still a long journey ahead.

I have a post about my chat with Dr. Sh.er's nurse with more details about my impending retrieval cycle. But I think I'll post that separately in the next day or two.