Sunday, May 8, 2011

Not my favorite day

This is my fourth Mother's Day since starting our journey. And I know there will be at least one more Mother's Day childless since the earliest our transfer could be is December or January, making next August-September the earliest we could actually have a baby.

And last week was one year since our first miscarriage.

So it's been a rough day. I went to brunch with my family/grandmother/aunt/cousins, and then spent the rest of the day with my family. Of that group only my immediate family knows about the miscarriage(s) and none of them realized it's been a year.


And my husband just left for five days on a business trip. (On the bright side it's much easier to have him leave this year than it was this time last year... I don't recommend being solo a week after a miscarriage/D&C...)

I'm happy to have a plan for this year and happy to be working with Dr. and try a change in protocol. But it's been a long journey and right now it feels like there's still a long journey ahead.

I have a post about my chat with Dr.'s nurse with more details about my impending retrieval cycle. But I think I'll post that separately in the next day or two.


  1. Im sorry to hear you not only had to get through Mothers Day but were also dealing with your miscarriage.
    Its exciting that you have a plan going forward and I really hope that Dr has the secret ingredient to help you become a mum.
    Hugs, LilyTaj xx

  2. sending lots of love to you. Hoping for a different kind of mother's day for you next year.

  3. I'm sorry bad days converged on you this year. Much love sent your way!


  4. Hugs girl....take care...

  5. Thinking of you and the baby you lost. xo

  6. FateofthecookieMay 9, 2011 at 9:07 AM

    Thinking of you too! Xoxo