Third time's the charm

We had our first ob ultrasound today (the first two were with our RE). We're 10w5d.

This one was a big deal. Not because of the ultrasound, per se, but because my ob was the doctor who did the scan in my first two pregnancies where we found out about the missed miscarriages. Those had actually been the second ultrasounds for those pregnancies, which is why we stuck with our RE for the first two this time.

I had no logical reason to be anxious about this ultrasound, but Pavlov works quickly, and two bad scans definitely gave me a bad connotation to an ultrasound with my ob (who I adore, and who took extremely good care of me, especially with my second miscarriage - I will call him Dr. R).

I was queasy this morning, as I often am when I wake up (since it's been hours since I ate), but eating didn't help this time. My husband and I drove separately to the doctor's office, since he needed to go to work afterwards, and my heart was racing. We got there about 5 minutes early for a 9am appointment, and realized that he was in the office next to his old office. I was happy for a new environment, and the offices are much nicer.

We didn't get called in until about 9:20, which felt like a very long 20 minutes to wait. Our appointment was actually with his nurse practitioner, since he's so hard to schedule with, but I'd traded email with him beforehand and he would come in to do the scan. I hadn't met his NP before, and I burst into tears as soon as she walked into the room. I had to explain that it wasn't because I actually had anything to worry about, just that prior history was making me scared. She got it (and I really liked her). About 10 minutes later he came in and did the scan - my first abdominal scan! It made for a slightly less clear image, but it was still easy to see our little guy, and he almost immediately did a giant wiggle. Dr. R let us hear the heartbeat (first time - at our RE's we'd just seen it), which was great. He took a measurement (within range, a day or two smaller than our due date would suggest, but the measurement is pretty imprecise with the lower quality image), and then the scan was done!

We went through a bunch of pregnancy stuff with the NP, all of which I knew but my husband didn't, and they gave me lab orders for their OB panel (most of which I've already done for IVF, but it was just easier to do the whole panel than to pick and choose the ones I haven't done recently), and for the first trimester screening (as part of the NT scan process). Tomorrow I'll call and schedule our NT scan, which technically we could skip since we did CGH, but hey, it's another chance to get an ultrasound! (I was amused that the reason for the NT scan that's checked on the form is 'advanced maternal age', even though my ob knows we used donor eggs.)

All this time, the only family member who knows we're pregnant is my husband's sister. We're telling my family on Saturday night, at my (slightly late) birthday dinner, and my husband's mom is visiting us from out of town starting next Thursday, so we'll tell her then. My husband's dad will get a phone call this weekend to confirm (he kinda knows, for some reasons that aren't relevant on this blog. :)

It's hard to believe that it's really happening!